A post from December 18, 2015
This morning I work up, after almost 8 hours of sleep (interrupted but I’ll take it!!), and rather than hopping right up and getting into the day, I just laid there (so very rare for me) and I contemplated on the many thoughts that went through my head in the night.
I’ve been spending A LOT of time in God’s word these last few months, and what I was taught growing up seems to be VERY different from what I am learning as I read and am consumed by Gods word.
What if being a Christian is NOTHING like what I thought it was, nothing like what I was raised to believe. What if those that taught me had it all wrong, what if they were taught wrong? What if the deception and lies that Satan throws at us are SO MUCH WORSE than I ever imagined? I hear the word deceptive and I know what it means, I can wrap my head around it, but when I think about where my heart is leading me, I’m speechless at the level of deception. It is greater than I ever imagined.
When I lay in bed this morning and I was thinking about something my husband and I used to talk about. “How can you know what the light is like if forever you have lived in darkness.” (this statement is generic and applicable to anything). For example, How can I know what it’s like to be a Christian if I’ve never experienced it, How can I know what it’s like to eat something sweet if I’ve never had sugar, How can I know what it’s like to throw up if I’ve never been sick, etc…
And the matrix movie came to mind. I don’t remember too much of the movie – just the point, they were living a lie, and only a few of them woke up to see what was happening and fight against it.